KevS wrote: ↑
Sun Dec 06, 2020 10:37 pm
I'll be honest, I'm a bit low tonight.
The scenes from Harrods, Nottingham and Regent Street make me wonder if we've learnt a single damn thing. Normally I'd be heading back to Ipswich to see the family obviously in just under three weeks, but I've decided this year not to. With parents in their seventh decade, it's not worth the risk. Not only that, the three households rule means that I have to miss someone out.
So it really gets my goat to say the least if people then think I've made that decision on a whim. Believe me, I haven't. I've been stressing over that decision since October.
It's just that I begin to wonder if I'm the only idiot still taking this seriously. I know I'm not, but frankly, you despair sometimes.
Indeed. You just know that for most for them it was all a laugh, a chance to be a bity edgy, a bit radical, a bit sticking it to the oldies.
Then you have my mum, who for nine months has been reasonably stoic in the face of adversity, but recently decided that she wanted something that her friend had got a spare one of. Every elderly lady has got a friend like this, and we all know the sort - do anything for anyone, lovely woman, says what she thinks. Or to put it another way, a nosey old cow who sticks her nose into everybody else's business and rules don't apply to her because "It won't matter just this once". And I tell my mum for weeks that the big sign on the front door doesn't say at the bottom *Except you, and she Cannot Have It. And she says she's heard me and she knows she can't. And lo, when I drop her groceries off yesterday morning there it is, standing on the table. But it's alright, because she was only in here for two minutes.
And I totally fucking lose it, and I don't care how many of her neighbours can hear me because then they'll know how utterly selfish she is and why does she have to do everything that stupid cow says and has she not taken in a single word we've said since March and is this thing that I know she'll never use more important than the lives of her and all of her family, and that's it I'm staying away for two weeks and you can stay on your own for Christmas and I know that no matter how much she says she understands that she doesn't because in her mind she's my mother and I'm the ungrateful child who shouldn't speak to her like that and should willingly do everything she tells me to without complaint and she's never wrong and I'm really sorry I must sound like an absolute bastard getting angry at this old woman because in the last years of her life she shouldn't have to put up with living like this and fuck you Johnson and Sunak and Patel and Hancock and all you incompetent bastards who have totally fucked up the biggest peacetime challenge any government has ever faced and they won't care because they and their friends will come out of it a lot richer than they entered it.
And l've just drunk a bottle of very nice St Bernadus 12 and I'm as mad as hell and I'm not going to take this anymore.